Happiness....

This is something I posted on one of the (many) websites I peruse:

I know there are people who check this board who are considering adoption, or waiting to be matched with their child and I just felt compelled to share.....

My husband and I waited 3 years to be matched for our 2nd child. I wanted a girl so bad I can't even describe it. I NEEDED a girl! You see, my mother who was also my best friend died suddenly 9 years ago in a horrible automobile accident. She was my best friend and I didn't think my life would ever be "happy" again. Four years later we were matched with a wonderful young woman who wanted to place her baby with us. Our son was born and I experienced happiness like I never imagined was possible. Then we fell into routine, back to taking things for granted which I think is so easy for us to do. My son is such a Daddy's boy, that I kind of felt like a 3rd wheel at times. My heart began to ache again for a little girl. I needed that feminine connection. We signed up with a couple of agencies and waited and waited. We decorated the nursery, I secretly bought a pair of pink booties, for good luck. I prayed, and prayed. When the agency called us with possibilities for babies that they knew would be boys, I prayed for God to either make this not work out, or fix my heart so that I didn't want a girl so badly. None of those potential boy situations worked out. Then after waiting for so long, we talked about giving up, tearing down the nursery and redecorating as a play room for our son or an office. I prayed again for God to help me and change my heart again so that I wouldn't feel empty for this little girl that I didn't think I'd ever have. Then, August 16th, the phone rang and my entire world changed. The potential birthmom that we knew was interested in us...... but hadn't chosen a couple yet.... had chosen us. She had the baby that morning, and it was a GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll never, ever forget that phone call as long as I live. I could probably recite most of it verbatim. I can't even think about it without getting all choked up. We met the bmom and our daughter the next day and I think I floated for several days. It even took a few weeks before I actually let myself emotionally embrace this baby girl. I just couldn't believe this was actually happening. She was actually mine! MY LITTLE GIRL! I can't believe that we almost gave up. I can't believe that I almost pulled the plug on domestic adoption several times to go international. I can't believe my childhood dream of having a little girl actually came true. You see, I am a pessimist at times, quite often actually, and everyone else's dreams come true, not mine. But they DID! I just want those of you who are waiting for your dreams to come true, DON'T GIVE UP! DREAMS DO COME TRUE, and

mine is just beautiful!!!
Kim